My plans to have a big fiftieth birthday celebration and
vacation all changed for me when my mother got sick this summer and died on
July 31, 2015. Planning a big birthday bash and celebration took a back seat to
helping take care of my mom to switching gears to assist with the planning of
her funeral. So a day which I have long anticipated has now turned bittersweet.
And, receiving a birthday card from my dad a few days ago signed only with his name made anticipating
this day even worse because it was a reminder that my mom is really no longer here. After receiving
this birthday card, I immediately went to the gym to work out rather than allowing
my melancholy mood to spiral down an even darker tunnel.
Disappointed that I didn’t have a flight this morning to somewhere
far away to celebrate this milestone, I forced myself to get out of the bed,
thanked God for another day, went in prayer, read some devotionals and
scriptures in the Bible and wrote in my journal. After journaling, I cleaned up
my house and then went back to bed to sleep a few more hours hoping that when I
woke up it would be the next day. But, it wasn’t. Therefore, I was led to start
writing again and this blog post was born.
Like writing, water also calms me, so I just took a hot bath
and I’m now headed to the gym to break a sweat. I then will return home to relax
and just chill out – but not before taking another bath or shower. I love me
some water!
All in all, I am thankful to celebrate another birthday and
although my mom is no longer with me, I thank the Lord for giving me forty-nine
years with her. Tomorrow is yet another day and I plan to do my best to enjoy
it. Perhaps, in a few months, I will take a much needed vacation
somewhere to celebrate that I am now a half-century old…
© Carla J. Curtis, October 2015
© Carla J. Curtis, October 2015
2 comments:
I certainly feel you...
DeAnna
Thanks DeAnna for taking the time to read my blog post and for providing your comment. I really and truly appreciate it.
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